Selina Loves Hard

COFFEE, I'D LIKE TO SEE OTHER PEOPLE

2010-11-15T20:58:00.001-05:00

My relationship with coffee got so intense at times i didn't know how to control myself. i wanted Coffee every day and sometimes after work when i know i should just go home and relax. but that roasty aroma and the handsome brown color of coffee would always tempt me. au lait with lots of foam tickled right down my throat and made everything fit together. but i tried to break it off; i tried to see others: mr. tap, earl grey and even OJ, but nothing taste quite as satisfying as the frothy goodness and rush of mr. coffee. i need to kick this; i'm not getting younger and my nerves can only take so much of this, this caffeine. yet, everywhere i look it's all around me! hands cradling, warmed by sippy cups with fancy sleeves, cheap corner store fare and their flippy lids speaking to me in steam. venti, grand, 75 cents, a dollar-ten, everyone says it's okay to have it whenever, however, wherever...how can i escape you! i can't seem to quit you; at least not cold turkey, mmm cold, iced coffee - no! that would be too extreme...maybe after one more cup? yes definitely one more cup and i'll end it...definitely.

wake up!

2010-04-22T10:14:00.005-04:00

so i've been behind in my fallon and caught the one with tracy morgan. this is so much better than checking my email in the morning and coffee (but i still got coffee). now i have a new favorite quote "RELEASE THE KRAKEN!"

Release the KRAKEN! from gerard on Vimeo.

dreaming about maltese dogs led to this post...

2010-04-19T10:28:00.003-04:00

CAT PICTURE DAY!

may use this as a profile picture on social networking sites cos no one really should rely on social networking sites to get to know someone.

today's version of the velvet elvis.

2010-03-25T00:01:00.003-04:00

WHO KEEPS PUTTING THESE GUYS ON HORSES?!

inspiration from...2

2010-03-24T23:40:00.004-04:00

E n j o y ...

xoxo

-S

inspiration from...

2010-03-10T21:05:00.003-05:00

I got inspired today by the

death of Corey Haim and made this t-shirt. well i transformed one i already had/loved/teared.

"Death by Stereo"

The finished product.

i'm off...(to chat roulette)

xoxox

-S

alaskan summer! alaskan summer?

2010-03-07T15:24:00.005-05:00

i haz window way opened!

it is over 50ºF this sunday and i am off. i'm just miffed i didn't wake up earlier to go jogging. i was out of bed at 1pm officially being that i worked til 1.30 am and watched an episode of Roseanne while eating Ben & Jerry's Colbert ice cream putting my bedtime at around 3am.

i'm not layering much today but i'm all about the aa skirt i constantly wear in summer - today. that's right legs you're coming out. today.

do barbies dream of plastic sheep...?

2010-03-05T11:25:00.016-05:00

i was thinking today about barbie dream houses...i used to want this one soooo bad. i remember playing with one at a girl's house and not really caring too much about her or her other toys...i loved the windows most. my first desire for modern design, right here:

instead i got the barbie penthouse with the elevator - which doubled as a jet propelled rocket for barbie whenever playing with my brother. egads.
saw some pics of barbies over the years and a flood of memories came back. all nice ones. i remember my very first barbie. yeah, it was still the disco era. she was so shiny! and flammable!

after that i'm not sure of the order. but, i definitely remember having this pink barbie. it's weird how i remember parts of her like the stole and how it felt. the polka dots...:

and day to night barbie was all about her career and going out seamlessly. this jacket was velvet!:

crystal barbie! her dress and stole were probably my favorite, everrr. the more barbie wore it the more crinkly it got and all these new patterns of irridescence would form. putting her near christmas lights put me in a stupor...it was bliss. and her jewelry ahh. i wonder what this would translate to on a real girl...hmm:

i think i had this barbie...i definitely had this outfit which happens sometimes when you play with other friends barbies. you suddenly acquire the top half of an ensemble and accessories. this was also velvet - what the hell, barbie...

i also remember having barbie and the rockers. probably the coolest

barbie i had:

yes! and i had the whole plastic band set with half stacks, mics, keyboard and keytar.
i used what i had to fill out barbie's world and my barbies and her friends (and sometimes ken, her loving silent but strong husband) would drive around in rainbow bright's car. hey, they fit, who cares...
i'm sure i could go on forever about this but...i'll save it for some other time.
xoxo
-S

fairisle kind of day. winter grumble, grumble.

2010-03-04T10:36:00.004-05:00

i was bored today as soon as i got to work (quel surprise) so i drew my sweater in paintbrush. in a way also a homage to the days when paintbrush was the only way being pre-photoshop.

i also have a photo of my cozy outfit today: paint splatted squin jeans a t-shirt as thin as tissue under my fairisle sweater. it's one of the few things i still have since highschool. and being that i moved 8 million times and lost/discarded/donated mad clothes in that time it's a feat to still have something i owned in the days when kurt cobain was still alive.

way to be awesome, fairisle sweater i bought in a thriftstore in levittown, pa, way to be. awesome.

xoxo
-S

Unexplained Mysteries: Fibonacci Numbers

2010-02-26T09:53:00.002-05:00

this makes me not feel like such a weirdo. sometimes i'm weird with numbers. like i can predict things by messing around with them. learning about Fibonacci makes it seem more organic and less neurotically charged...
*whew*
definitely going to read up more on this...

Unexplained Mysteries: Fibonacci Numbers

saw this on TED also which combines crafting, sea creatures and math. am i in heaven!

Death & Taxes

2010-02-17T11:32:00.003-05:00

yay i'm doing my taxes!

this is the first picture i got by googling, "pretty taxes".

doing my taxes only takes a few minutes, yet it's the waiting until all the w-2 forms are in before i can print out my form, double check the address to send it off and forget about. i think i only have two w-2 forms this year not counting the illustriously unfruitful school tax forms i get. one day i will get down to one w-2 form...one day. by then i also want an accountant. someone trustworthy like a guy named, Larry or something...

RIP McQueen

2010-02-11T22:50:00.004-05:00

Lee Alexander McQueen died. I heard of his suicide today. His mother passed some days before.

From a man who creates clothes the way he did and even film that explored the depth of darkness - for beauty or worse, this is not an incongruence; although it is a tragedy nonetheless when someone takes their own life - celebrity or not. the fashion world will miss you. you leave a massive void to fill. thank you Universe for giving us McQueen.

alexander mcqueen after the spring 10 show in Paris.

Fall 2009

another look from fall 2009.

a look from spring 10. reminiscent of sea creatures

of the deep sea. blue is the last color able to reflect

at depths of 2000 feet beyond the sun's light...interesting.

more of spring 10. scuba-ness.

all pics from style.com

xoxo -S

i bought this book

2010-02-05T20:51:00.006-05:00

i've lived here for years and only just now gone to the natural history museum. all i was interested in were the sea creatures.

i'm pretty sure i have a phobia about being near whales.

forgot my camera so i had to take a bunch of mobile ones that i'm not into uploading right now. bluetooth is acting up...

i sketched this little guy while there earlier this week:

today i went through part one of two, of getting my tooth fixed. afterwards i had nowhere to be and all my errands pretty much were taken care of via the phone. sooooo what better place to waste some time in than Strand. i went straight to the art books (tunnel vision - a blessing and a curse); i pretty much looked at EVERY page of the vice photobook (i want it so hard). and i bought this book on photography today, "the photograph as contemporary art". i don't like to spend money on any book i am not sure i'm going to like buuuut i saw a few pages:

mostly it's like a survey of a lot of photogs i like:

ryan mcginley

nan goldin

greg crewdson

just to name a few...

if i had to pick a medium...a camera would be it. otherwise every thing i find is a medium. yes, models with very little creative inhibitions and a sense of adventure are welcome...

xoxox

inspiration.

2010-01-23T16:09:00.010-05:00

just a few things...

Out/In:

2009/2010

Gossip Girl/Glee

Twilight/Avatar

art rap/bedroom pop

neon/plaid

emo hair/blue hair

face piercing/dreading

80s/90s

excess/process

double bag/no bag

SEWING.

someone said there are acres of diamonds right in your backyard. i don't feel like looking up who this is but it's some guy from the 20th century. anyway long story short i found amazing fabric for $2 a yard by my house and i can't wait to make dresses out of it and some clothes i have which didn't make the cut at Beacon's Closet. instead of spending money on clothes these days, i've invested in a mini sewing maching for simple tasks like pillows, dresses and whatever else the thing is strong enough to make :)

some irredescent stretch fabric, floral print on pink

and sparkly tough fabric.

INSPIRATION. ...currently getting inspiration from! drumroll...

RODARTE! the tribal looking marks - so rough yet girly. and two of my fave people front row of the show; yeah good taste, do it. detail of the skirt at Rodarte show. raw edges, yum...and means less sewing of hems for me! yeaaah!

DONNA KARAN: always looks sophisticated

without being inconvenient. loving the big chain.

RICK OWENS: loooove this metallic

tissue dress. i have to touch it.

future wedding dress?? um, maybe.

shoes are awesome cos they go with

everything in my closet. :)

also Yves Klein-ed my room. The walls are blue. a beautiful royal blue. it actually darkens the room. at night it looks like i'm looking into a void. *weird*

XOXO -S

runway photos: style.com

8th house.

2010-01-11T13:01:00.011-05:00

momento mori has its place...on my fingers...

totally impractical on a daily basis yet creative and ideal for those times when you host a party at your loft and need to not be upstaged by the trapeze artist hanging from your pipes....

taxidermy done right. i ♥ this brooch.
these are all found here though she is based in Australia.

Also in love with the double layers vest and fringe necklace with patterned leggings from Elohim. the palettes are simple - mostly black or white. some of this can be found at Pixie Market.

Annnnd...I gave away a band jacket like three years ago cos i didn't want it to sit in my closet even though i KNEW the look would catch on.

I heart the Silence + Noise band jacket at Urban Outfitters better though...

The one i gave away had a million colors in it - i'd rather not have that P-Funk look...

xoxo -S

{first three images: julie deville

last image: uban outfitters.}

macaron love

2009-12-11T09:41:00.003-05:00

yay! someone understands my adoration of the macaron! and they made a book!

xoxox

I used to live in a psychic city...

2009-12-09T14:25:00.002-05:00

Yacht - Psychic City (Voodoo City)

i work in a place where they play music from relative unknown locals to Jay-Z and this one song is my fave - one of the lesser knowns. it's catchy and weird. recently i saw the video for said catchy song and it made me consider my preferences for weirdness. don't judge! nonetheless this video is frickin weird...like 'i made a doll out of your hair will you be my date' weird. whatever makes me smile (but at the end i cringed).

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what does chanukah smell like?

2009-11-14T17:02:00.006-05:00

Was in über home decor store and noticed all the holiday home accents. you know the candles, centerpieces of dried unidentifiable shrubbery and nuts, stockings and the like...Yankee Candles pulled at my heartstrings reminding me of Christmases past with smells like, home sweet home, mistletoe, Christmas cookies. then there are the glittery apples and balls and leaves in unnatural colors like blue for the Sophisticates' Christmas, which drew me to the Chanukah side of the accent aisle. and looking through all the blue candles and sacks, the dreidels and gold coins, i couldn't find it. i couldn't find a Chanukah smell. and there were no alluding accents to nature or leaves or food or whatever. then i thought, well, what does Chanukah smell like?? does it have a smell?

joy is useless unless SHARED

2009-09-14T20:08:00.002-04:00

and this is definitely worth sharing...

PUPPIES DRESSED AS CATS!

thanks coco...

xoxoxo

and my creativity is feeding me.

2009-08-21T19:56:00.000-04:00

i love food and like to cook at home and lately my cooking skills have been ON. i was so impressed by my reawakened domesticity that i had to document it. thanks to the internet and chance (totally went dada on some recipes) it seemed insanely simple: mix uncooked noodles, milk, cheese and some melted butter in a pan and bake for an hour. to be honest i stopped reading the recipe after i read the ingredients and skipped to the bake an hour part. i wasn't even certain that anything more was involved. before i popped it in the oven i had reservations; it looked like someone puked after eating fettucine alfredo or some junk. but i had faith. to top it off i shortened the recipe and came out with a single serving the first night. the next night i was able to get leftovers for a couple more meals and it came out perfect with crunch edges and everything. YAY! i added some diced onions and fresh spinach on top and well, here it is...

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Wish i could make these but i haven't tried to yet. Occasionally i treat me self and on my way from NY Burger I ran across this cute place called Madeline's Patisserie. Needless to say these gems in the window caught my eye i heart them! i think the colors attracted me, then i ate one and loved them so now years later i'm all about the ever elusive macaroon.

There were so many kinds at Madeline's, that they had a menu just for them. these were the most i ever paid for them so i got just a few - no need to blow all my money on sugar (i was still sipping on a vanilla milkshake from burger place). of course i got pistachio ones and a praline. This is my dessert to my insanely easy mac & cheese dinner. fridays at my crib - you will get fed...

ohhhmmmm

2009-08-10T22:22:00.006-04:00

Taking time out is important. That's why I took off a couple of days and finally slept in for the first time in weeks...

I'm also getting really good at throwing out things that are no longer useful: brochures from a million different yoga places nowhere near my job, scraps of tracing paper and gift bows from like six years ago. i decided to do something fun with the bows before turning it into garbage...

xoxo

From Russia with Love.

2009-08-07T22:42:00.000-04:00

Someone very empathetic told me today in their wonderfully soothing russian accent that they have a saying that life is like a zebra. They pointed to my striped sweater with the light stripes contrasting the deep blues intimating, sometimes life is light and sometimes it can be dark.

let us play with your look some more

2009-07-22T10:43:00.004-04:00

thank you jimmy fallon...again.

stuff i find and run into...or something.

2009-07-18T21:58:00.003-04:00

The Government of The Future (?)

l. to r.: the guy from Robocop, Kyle McLaughlin, Lynch and Bowie.

I saw Kyle in chelsea a few days after I found this photo on, well, fffffound.

ahh synchronicity...

too busy. no can make blog

2009-07-15T10:43:00.002-04:00

I’ve been busy with sleep deprivation, moving, writing papers and studying. Pulp Fiction was apt background to studying Futurism. I managed to find time to watch Sam J. being quite awesome on Youtube. He also is a big sports fan so I’m not surprised finding this.

(the center of the universe)

2009-07-12T20:30:00.004-04:00

I helped Roman Ondák measure the universe...

2009-07-08T14:40:00.005-04:00

(freewebs.com)

today i thought it was the 70s again when i saw an obviously pregnant lady smoking on the street.
i also feel like a baby trapped inside a mom who smokes; i'm self-protective.
i just can't wait to get the hell out and be free...but until then, i'm kickin ribs.

and ho! yonder, thee sentimentality...

2009-06-30T17:37:00.004-04:00

i believe that when you give someone a book and never get it back, you've inadvertently given them a message they needed to receive. i've given by accident, "breathe, eyes, memory" a good book for any woman to read.
i've also never returned a great book, "women who run with wolves". and maybe because i've never returned it, i remember the guy who i borrowed it from. he's an artist who makes sculptures out of typewriters and wax and baby doll heads among other things...

let us play with your look.

2009-06-19T10:35:00.003-04:00

skit or performance art. Jimmy Fallon and Will Farrell made me laugh so much today and reminded me of pscyedellic 60s art fringe pop a little. the entire show was good (eat it like a flute!) but i just gave you the look.

xoxo

i'm going to the uncanny valley

2009-06-04T10:12:00.008-04:00

I asked my teacher would taxidermy be considered realism and he said it's uncanny. Someone actually made a chart exemplifying this:

This unicorn (like all!) is spectacular...

It's by Børre Sæthre. I love things like this and being that I love diaromas too I should probably go to the Natural History museum soon. Any takers?!

I remember one spring break while everyone else was boning locals in Cancun I took myself to the Natural History museum in Philly (where I was going to school at the time). I just geeked it up that year...

THIS is also awesome!

2009-06-02T13:31:00.004-04:00

since my weheart feed doesn't seem to want to cooperate i'm posting a few bits i hearted. yes, hearted is a verb now.

hair...

and this is why brown girls are awesome.

take note.

love us.

we love you.

a smattering of my own photos

2009-05-28T20:43:00.004-04:00

fresh & green

a plain white tee

sparkly balls

a tutu! awwww!

xoxo

McG How do I love thee…

2009-05-27T15:53:00.005-04:00

Let me count the ways...

Strong kick ass women characters who are unabashedly feminine.

The gratuitous use of pristine muscle cars.

Stylized action sequences.

Classic rock (which now also includes 90s grunge) prominent.

Prominent Browns (usually musicians, usually awesome).

Guys who are guys and love the aforementioned strong women.

so over damien hirst

2009-05-21T15:30:00.005-04:00

i used to like Damien Hirst now I'm not so into it. It's not that i'm a hater now it's just that i'm seeing it in a different way than before. i'm not so impressed by it. back when i first realized who/what i was looking at in 2007, i thought it kind of genius. mother and child or the thing with the cows stuck with me - in fact most of the formaldehyde animal cross sections intrigued me. i saw it as: hey mother and child yet somehow this is very sad and creepy. like their dependency on each other is somehow their demise. maybe it's just a predisposed awe with the connection it had to scenes from The Cell (a visually stunning movie with a whatever canned plot) which took a lot of artistic references from works of art and an REM video. but anyway NOW it seems a lot are not liking him anymore. maybe he broke the dam that flooded the art market with dribble (sorry for the metaphor) overshadowing (drowning) some really exceptional emerging artists in its wake. i'm not sure i'm a sophomore at this. aesthetically i am over hirst though. there's only so many ways one can cover a skull in non-organic material and he's not innovative to me now.

i had this conversation with a guy i worked with in the village over the weekend. turns out he studied art and worked the industry yet he's so over new york and can't find a gallery job so he's booking farther north. when i said damien hirst is over rated he got a second wind like i'd said what he's been waiting to hear for a while. then he asked me what i did like and all i could think of was Fragonard. i think i like the colors and the flirtatiousness of it. it's not very sad and it's very organic.

i think a modern day version of this would be lastnightsparty or nickydigital where you see a slice of life that's very carefree and not at all moralistic. ha, Merlin is Fragonard...or is he caravaggio? hmm.

i didn't think i'd like renaissance all that much but i'm liking and re-liking some of the artists in that time. after all they are still influencing todays artists.

I saw something soooo absurdly amazing on BOOOM - where I get a dose of art every day (most local and emerging) -by artist Joshua Bronaugh and there seemed to be minimal brush strokes yet you knew exactly what it was... amazing.

random wants

2009-05-18T13:35:00.001-04:00

ooh i want the post secret book so bad. xoxo

hi, snark how are you?

2009-05-14T12:11:00.003-04:00

NOT SO LOVED HARD
it does nothing more than burn me up to read some of the entertainment news and today i saw something entitled "gals of summer" and yet again there were NO brown actresses. Megan Fox with an orange tan doesn't count as a brown girl. Brown girls are ALIVE, they are awesome they went to Julliard! propaganda is still among us and it glitters, man.

STYLIZED NON-CONFORMITY
once i was so fed up i emailed urban outfitters about all the distinctly ubiquitous models and they wrote me back right away. i was somewhat relieved that they requested a portfolio of models i had in mind - an actual response and a cooperative one. too bad i didn't have any clients to propose to them. anyway, maybe in the future. i always see beautiful faces in the streets but i better act fast cos the swimsuit models they had this year made me want to poke my eyes out with a fountain pen dipped in lemon juice. not exaggerating. no form, no curves, no ass and no color. i won't be buying any of their swimsuits on that marketing faux pas. okay i could see not a lot of people having beautiful curvaceous asses, but c'mon they looked like13 year old boys! no curves anywhere.
the only thing my eyes did enjoy seeing in frivolous news is the new character in the latest Terminator movie. holy shit, Sam Worthington is perfect! and he has an australian accent. good lord...ironically this last bit seems to negate my vehement opinion on the narrow visual representation in fashion and film. but, i know what my eyes like and i think that even if there were more browns in media i'd still like the worthingtons out there. but, whoever let Iman slip in there...thank you. and i'm sure Bowie is thanking you too...

MA|Art Market Principles show FIT.

2009-05-08T09:28:00.012-04:00

Peter Kreider:

Christina Gundersen

I like the painterly strokes in this.

Jeana Baumgardner

Mary Temple:

an illusion of sunlight when there is none.

art at FIT

Queens: woohoo! worthy

2009-04-25T21:20:00.007-04:00

talk about trying to find a balance! i have to work tomorrow but i really want to go to QUEENS. that other borough i've been avoiding since 2005 (along with the Bronx). i don't think i've been there in like three years when i visited my friend at Flux Factory. so yeah, this better be gooood...there's a show at the Queens Museum, Queens International 4 that has a plethora of artists, Queens artists, bikes and shenanigans at the closing ceremony. New friend is co-curator and I definitely want to check it out...and old friends are band playing the event - The Unstoppable Death Machines! I hope to make it!

a message from the universe.

2009-04-03T22:39:00.005-04:00

i really am taciturn when it comes to internet expression cos so many randoms stalk me. but i figure, this is sooooo beautiful not to want to share.

i got a totally out of the blue email from an old friend. the only thing i edited were the brackets:

I have to admit, I have always been in awe of you, starting in high school. To me, you were that person that I wished I had the balls to be. You were original, funny, nice, and you had a ton of great friends. I was not like that, I was a follower who pretended to be, well, not a follower.
I saw you on [SG], probably more than a year ago, and I freaked! I sat there and told my fiance basically what I just typed. I pulled out a poem I had written that you illustrated. It was one of those moments that kinda just froze. Looking at the pictures, thinking "wow, that's Selina, I know her! She's outstanding!" I sat there, in awe all over again! Finding you on here and getting the opportunity to read your blog has been great. You are creative with your words, very descriptive when you write. I love that, I write the same way when my brain is working correctly. Your photography is outstanding! You have talent. I don't know what you have done between high school and now, but I'm sure it's been a great adventure for you. I think you continue to be someone I would love to have the balls to be, someone I envy! I love being a momma more than anything, don't get me wrong, but I have never been anything else and sometimes that's depressing for me.
No, I am not some strange stalker, I just always have to let someone know when they have affected me in some way. Just thought I'd let you know.
Continue being you!
Liz

Liz is awesome. My response to the email was pretty much, thank you from the bottom of my heart...

cos lots of times you feel things and believe things and hope that you're getting across to people the way you intend and when someone is affected in a positive way by what i did it's like Divinity giving me a reassuring nudge. I'm listening.

ambassadors of cute

2009-04-03T22:03:00.012-04:00

this is real! this is better than pushing your kids to become beauty paegant winners. do you think you get free parking for singing in a swimsuit?! no...being ambassador is the way to go and now it's easier if your cuuuuute!

and you know what else would make a great title...

Ambassador of Cool

...and who would be a perfect one.

Sam J. (pff, obviously)

Fafi!

2009-04-01T22:36:00.007-04:00

My first introduction to Fafi was entirely random (or just a cunning eye for the next whatsit!). I went to Colette in Paris and saw this shirt that had a girl on it with macabre maracas and it was enough for me to want to pay $40 for it. I thought, 'I'm in freakin Paris when am I ever going to see this again?' It was a shirt by an artist called Fafi and little did I know she'd reach blowin-up-shit proportions later across the pond.

She'll be exhibiting along with other ladies who are mostly in the street art set at McCaig-Welles in Williamsburg. I'm going to try to make it out there next Friday but can't promise anything...

If anyone is into illustration or street art: the genre, should take a look though.

grandma cookies in the sun.

2009-03-24T20:09:00.004-04:00

This is what I had for lunch today. It's a pack of butter cookies that were heaven in my mouth and a large hot chocolate I got across from FIT. I sat in the sun and enjoyed every remaining minute of my break. I figured since I've been overindulging in the lamb gyros for a few days I can skip a few meat food groups for a day.

One thing I've learned to accept about my tastes is that I loooove grandma cookies. I call them grandma cookies but they are really called butter cookies. They come in a tin sometimes with chunky sugar on it and sometimes they come in horseshoes german style with almonds. doesn't matter i love them. snickerdoodles are another story...

what i saw in one day

2009-03-07T22:01:00.004-05:00

everyday i see hearts in everything. this is not a lie. and as i walked out down my block to go to work i saw this on the ground and decided to finally take a picture of said phenomena. later in the day i also saw what appeared to be two lamp posts leaning into each other as if kissing but my picture did not capture it. i guess it was for my eyes only...

i liked this style so much i had to take a picture of it. i think this was Bergies or Henri Bendel. I like to see the windows during christmas time too but occasionally i stop and look at a good window. this is totally me...

my sister used to say i loved anything sparkly when i was a kid. holograms, glitter, iridescence. i guess i'm still into it...

i was walking along Lexington on the way down to 59th street cos it was so nice out and i noticed someone had dumped some ice in a storm drain - which is normal, but the way it came to be caught my eye.

squeeze

2009-03-05T20:13:00.011-05:00

there are not enough hours in my days! i hope to go see some work by Caitlin Hurd. i can relate to the suburban ennui it looks like she represents in a lot of her artwork. i love her aesthetic and colors. also i want to see Lisa Lebofsky's work at the gallery in BK.

working 7 days and going to class in the eve is time consuming. i don't know how long i'm going to keep it up but i'm surprisingly not that tired, but i'm going to try and squeeze in some art things this week: looking at and creating some; i have an idea i want to do thanks to a certain Muppet i saw last week. There's something comforting about sitting around watching Muppets.

and here is a picture of my Blue Russian

cat wearing my legwarmer as a gentleman's scarf...

he's handsome.

true love is fleeting

2009-02-14T09:51:00.007-05:00

First and foremost - this crowd was great! i met and re-met some interesting artists (some with anime eyes!) and ran into a sort-of-ex-roommate i haven't seen since i moved out. had a great conversation about the luxury of simplicity.

i got to Leo Kesting Gallery after work and ran into my friend S who is an SVA alum. There were works from Nick Dyball also SVA alum. there was glorious cheese and as the night went on (and we closed the exhibit) more people packed the place and awed and had a great time...

it seems apt to have an exhibit named true love is fleeting near valentines day. there's so many things that are fleeting: time, opportunities, feelings, but why does love get all the attention? maybe it's cos everybody needs it and they're willing to spend crazy money on st. valentines to prove it. (i saw so many people with flowers today like they were going out of style). there's no way you can schedule love it just kind of happens and when it does there's no tangible way to hold onto it. you can't beef up your resume to sustain it or tie it to your sleeve. just to remember how it felt i guess is the best you can do when It is so fleeting that way you can recognize it when it comes back at the right time...so i'd like to believe.

Nick Dyball.

and i looked at this soooo long...

Donna Cleary's monoprints.

Diane Dwyer

Brenda Buck's polaroids are best in person cos you can see all the

faint messages in the white part of the "polaroid".

pictures that are not mine.

2009-02-12T18:15:00.005-05:00

i fill up my moments of free time/idling at work with various websites and i find stuff like this. did someone read my mind about how awesome sam j. is and make this painting...? do chubby kids holding pigs always look this cute? will that girl on vacation in africa ever redeem herself?

i've added another link in the sidebar so you can revel in pleasantries such as this... there are tons more though...i am only one person.

juliana hatfield playing in the background will help us solve this

2009-02-02T21:12:00.014-05:00

The terminally reflective 90s... when we'd all listen to college radio and remember all the obscure band's names whose lyrics were too personal. we'd watch sitcoms that all seemed to have that low-level indie music playing in the background (what was up with that!) while they had deep conversations about life. i miss those shows...where nothing blows up every two seconds and you could hear every tortured inflection in Angela's musing about Jordan Catalano or the trials of the party of five, and mustn't forget Dawson's creek or alien/human romance in roswell. I'm starting to see even more red hair, doc martens and nirvana tees cropping up in nyc than last year and incoming freshman look like they stepped off the train right from hot topic or the salvation army and conspicuous peace signs are back. still waiting for the Jordan Catalano hair to catch up with the guys though. c'mon guys get layered! just leave the hemp chokers at home, i don't think I'm ready for that yet...

and on another note so not the 90s but someone at work mentioned how 70s sitcom theme songs have a way of describing the entire synopsis of the show. hilarious! I immediately thought of Fall Guy. this makes me so happy.

you're walking through my heart once more...

2009-01-29T12:23:00.010-05:00

hooray! i went to the Met for my birthday and am now in love with Greek statues. i can spend two hours in there and it'll feel like two minutes! Hercules is my new fave (the younger version). I can appreciate the aesthetic much more now. i used to not even go in the Greek wing of the Met but i'm opening up to a newer perspective and this is an example.

I'd still like to hold onto my ability to find the beauty in everything...even a wall patterned by schrapnel. i was a little devastated when i realized this wall 'art' was made as a result of gunfire.

but, then i saw this photo of a dingy industrial space in russia and all of the sudden it was a little ethereal when the lights were turned on.

and i just luv this so hard.

balance

2009-01-26T23:13:00.007-05:00

and i was going to post about the james jean exhibit at jonathan levine gallery...but...it's so not timely at this point. it was the last show i've been to in a bit.

i will catch up and go to some more soooon.

but i have been thinking about twins a lot lately...or some derivative (our other selves) and it made me think about duality. it's hard to blend two contrasting ideas but if cooperation is sustained both parties can come out swimmingly or in some cases a person can be their whole self if they are willing to acknowledge all parts - even the darker sides. i think my twins would come out looking something like the twins on the left.

material world

2009-01-08T21:21:00.009-05:00

photos: orly strings; derick's wall; soft meat

at the last minute i ran over to the IMMATERIAL exhibit at Black & White Gallery. Glad I did; rarely do I like mostly everything in the entire exhibit. What attracted me to it was Orly Cagan with what I felt were beautifully loaded embroidery everywhere; I felt like I was seeing the thoughts of every girl (universally speaking) when she meets a guy she likes: a progression of phone calls, extra time doting on image, sex, aprons, planting seeds (literally and figuratively) and all the while worried that it won't be enough to keep him from thinking about how you two used to be just minutes before - or years before the present moment you are (still) together.

whew...

and...Adam Niklewicz made me smile cos I felt the sculptures were so sweet and innocent and apparently based on memory of things (real or imagined) he's experienced. read on his website; it'll make you take notice on the little things (or not. whatevs). The lighthouse arm was my fave of his. Derick Melender made a wall that was tempting to touch and snuggle; everyone was 'listening' to it as if the shirts, sweaters and jeans would tell you who wore them last; i wanted it in my room, as a bed post, the place where i'd put a setee - yes. apparently it's for sale for $17,000! what recession?!

Tamara Kostianovsky made meat and it was great. meat has so many connotations and somehow this makes me feel like i like meat and it is not inhumane to do so. maybe because it was so soft and made of fabric. something about non-fabric things made out of fabric that i really like. making something out of fabric that isn't naturally so strips it of it's guilty associations...

like this:

I can be a vegan and snuggle up with a plush cow carcass. i can enjoy a three-layer cake if it's crocheted and not in my bloodstream. Orly did the same with cupcakes, pies and fancy dishes. go see her page if you like cupcakes and pink things (Guys, this includes female parts - go! and delete your web history after your're done - or not cos you're secure in your masculinity and you can look at art full of pink things and cupcakes! when your girl sees your web history she'll think you're really in tune with her and her battle with the virgin/whore conundrum.

Kristian Kozul's boots stood out and were so fun. thank you kristian for creating this out of your head. it's like i know they have spikes in them but i still want to wear them. girls bleed into their heels and stomp new york streets every day - how will these be different...??

Boots taken with my camera phone suprisingly came out decent - I LOVE how it sparkles in this photo! Brilliant!

And Kaoru Hirano to sum up: beautiful destruction of things of material value. the dress took up a lot of space...and is $12,000. for that much i'd like to wear it out though.

by the power of greyshkul

2009-01-04T14:22:00.005-05:00

okaay, so it's been a while...

the holidays are over and party season is winding down and galleries are opening up from a long vacation again. my first one this year was a success. just enough eye candy to make the walk in 20º weather worth it.

Guild & Greyshkul was a nice space over in SoHo. One of the entrances was a screen door (creeky wooden porch-style) and near it a tin tub full of ice and brew. classy. oh and there was a pianist playing in an alcove above us the whole time. he could be seen in the window outside too almost as if he was part of the exhibit.

art was dispersed in such a way that many including myself almost stepped on them. but it's all part of the exhibit right? i took pics of some of my faves that stood out. the picture on the left reminded me of an industrial city and the one on the right looked like ice cream scoops arranged on the floor. i love those colors together (pink, cream, chocolate). I thought the sculptures by artist, Trenton Duerksen were beautifully loaded with references to school my fave included a stack of horses in front of a chalk board (no pic). hmmm...

art doesn't give you immediate answers all the time it's like realizations that come in waves if you're lucky it comes at all.

Another realization I came across this weekend

was that impromptu Cheese & Wine nights are brilliant!

i've got it all.

2008-12-17T21:32:00.007-05:00

I'm not a fan of T.E. just because of my tastes, but I saw this one photo of

hers - her art, and it caught my eye. I've been wanting to do my interpretation of that photo ever since...

This is what became of it.

In your face exhibit

2008-12-06T10:29:00.008-05:00

So I made it out to BUIA Thursday night and saw a glittery obama painting (which i'm curious to know how it would be received/explained had he lost) and a large beautiful painting from Rachel Schmidhofer. I was talking to the subject (ms. venus) about the omission of name plates near the art; it appears some galleries make it a rule to not have them, maybe for aesthetic reasons. i'd love to hear what the artists would want. i also liked daniel and ion exhibiting there. i went to three all together and lastly to the MFA exhibit at Parsons.

On the

way from Chelsea

i saw this on a wall:

There were some good things at Parsons. it felt like going to someone's loft- it was kind of intimate, like going into someone's room. it was a maze of artists and hard to remember everyone but i do recommend snatching up some Parsons grad for something...

Today I'm hoping to get to the Hunter College gallery uptown and back down to Nurture in BK.

more to come soon when i have more food and less alcohol in me!

like warm kisses on my eyeballs

2008-11-30T18:55:00.005-05:00

dry eyes. he said i have dry eyes. maybe it's cos i don't blink so much anymore because there's so much to see.

visually stimulate me.

so he gave me these drops

and it feels like warm kisses licking my eyeballs. since the first few drops i haven't needed any more. although if you see me and it looks like i'm crying, it just means i haven't been blinking much or you're very stimulating to my eyeballs.

not remembering you were yesterday or forgetting you are tomorrow

2008-11-28T22:55:00.010-05:00

when I get a great thought or see something and need to write it down, I write it in this notebook I always carry with me; I always seem to be in a retail environment when I think of these things. And when I went into my bag to get it I thought they might think I'm stealing. Did this in Strand today. Too many artists names to remember and not enough brain space in short-term memory to keep it in.
And will anyone ever trust Winona around retail again?

absinthe you're pretty...

2008-11-21T22:38:00.005-05:00

tonight i squeezed in a trip to 3rd ward after work and was interviewed like 30 seconds upon entering. it was interesting - a reception for sean fader.

ooh and they had cupcakes! peanut butter was my favorite and it went really well with the absinthe they had there. absinthe is not for the timid, i think the bartender said it was like 135 proof or something, yet my brain may have been kick-flipping at that first sip and i may have heard something different.

it was a good crowd.

chocolate, fake movie stills and neon lighting the way...

2008-11-20T23:01:00.007-05:00

i was wondering what this was all about...

i may go to this gallery to see some stuff by vik muniz and gregory crewdson they have there; it ends in December. also i seem to like a lot of things from Gagosian gallery.

waterworld

2008-11-18T12:03:00.007-05:00

not a lot scares me more than water trauma and this gave me a bad dream last night...

also sylvia browne says aliens will show themselves around 2010. she said this years ago...not that she's the authority on extraterrestrial mingling, but it's somthing that stuck with me.

...but maybe 2012 is when they step in cos we fucked everything up like those biohazard cleaners that clean up crime scenes. we make a big mess of ourselves like a kid that's found his dad's gun. will they arrive as calvary or mercenaries? ahh time will tell...

these things i have loved and eaten.

2008-11-17T21:53:00.005-05:00

a few things i loved today:

a my leftover pre-thanksgiving meal. stuffing is even better when it's seared and has nice crunchy edges - yum.

a pistachios: salted in shells, pudding (which is hard to find), french macaroons (found at this place near university place and 14th st.), they're pastel green and if you love color, macaroons are fun for you. it reminds me of when i used to put food color in my pancakes in high school out of boredom.

a gossip girl

a my new idea for a book

i believe i can see.

2008-11-15T15:26:00.015-05:00

Got my glasses today! it's a bit disorienting but i'm adjusting. the doctor said my eyes actually got better since my last prescription - weird; usually it's the other way around. it's as if - no i am seeing better now than i was 10 years ago.

• • • • • •

Also i believe i'd like to swim with tigers one day - just because.

petit mort.

2008-11-14T21:51:00.003-05:00

a haiku called Morningtime:

it's genius

2008-11-13T21:21:00.005-05:00

Read a great saying recently and it goes something like this:

a snake doesn't really know it's shape until it's put in a box.

that is genius. do you know how many boxes i've been in? they can be called:

small town

pennsylvania

girl

brown girl

...and the list is not over probably. but this is what i love, the process by which i get OUTSIDE of that box. you'd be surprised how livid people who hold high regard for the status quo get when they are proven wrong! i bet people will express themselves this way with the new president being brown and all.

LIVID!

which reminds me i should check on my siblings in the red states.

• • • • • •

on another note Tina Fey is genius. great writer...great.

"may cause sexual nightmares and sleep crimes." genius.

go google yourself

2008-11-03T20:37:00.006-05:00

Some stuff on me is popping up on google. i thought it was time sensitive cos stuff from college isn't up there anymore and yet this is! even though i was bored out of my mind with the material, it's good to be acknowledged for the work i do...

• • • • • •

On another note i'm very excited about sam j's new project. i feel another snakes-on-a-plane-cult-surge with this one (even though it is cult already). i see t-shirts being printed. You should see the original when Vanity was still killer...

• • • • • •

oh and cultural gems are everywhere

even behind a wall in a

dingy

laundromat

in Brooklyn:

halloween

2008-11-02T12:43:00.009-05:00

I'm so excited about getting new glasses. The last time i got glasses was in 1998 and they are the standard dark rectangular heavy frames suitable for all indie girls who love Bowie and make love to Sigur Ros. this pic was taken probably the last year i really wore them daily:

So saturday with a slight hangover - which is surpising cos I didn't drink a lot - maybe it's cos it was $2 Pabst.

And I went out with the intention of starting at Fabulous Frannies but i got the directions mixed up and ended up in the west village and not the east yet enjoyed a nice stroll through a part of the west village i've never seen. this is so possible being that there are so many nooks and streets in nyc and even a born and bred new yorker hasn't been on every street. so i'm enjoying my walk, the weather is gorgeous and i'm totally sold on moving to the village. it reminds me of olde city in Philly or yardley where i'm originally from in PA with all of the 8-pane windows, shutters and the people.

• • • • • •

so yes, about the glasses...after finally getting my fill i decided to hop back on the A train and head to union square. i stop at this one place on my short list and realize i've noticed this annoying yellow and black sign for years - it is MOSCOT. so i go to the door and there are two cops out front trying to - in an albeit laisez-faire way - coax this unconscious bum in a wheel-chair out of the lobby. this wasn't gonna stop me! so i ask, "are they open?!" and they're like yeah, go on up! so i go and see all this press on the wall. apparently Kanye West shopped here along with DeNiro and others - Great, this place is gonna be expensive. so...i went up and saw all of these frames and got excited when i saw Cazals but they were way too RUN DMC circa 85 so i kept looking and stopped on some Moscot brand frames. they were perfect - i might get two frames in black and grey. i have my first eye exam in like forever and i'll have new eyes next weekend woohoo!!

• • • • • •

I went out at the last minute as a Beatnik and met up with Booz and crew for the halloween parade + Booz came as a severed head in the fridge. scarlett came as black dahlia - i so luved her 50s glasses. there was frida khalo which was awesome. it was a good night - everyone was in a good mood and having fun, it was warm, yay halloween 2008.

The highligts were a guy dressed up as a 'money shot' complete with guy and bucket. not so much a highlight though as just low brow in my chronically refined opinion. there was a question on whether or not this guy was going to get laid and my assumption was yes cos there's always someone who will sleep with someone regardless of how obviously lame their costume. this was near NYU dorms. i avoided his spray and moved on. there were like a thousand Bee girls a few Urkels + some foreign guy was dressed as urkel and he wanted my email so he could email me a pic of us and i didn't give it to him even though he was cute and obviously not american. and my ultimate fave had to be at this bar we all went to in LES. i was standing near this girl and you know when you're staring at someone and you don't realize you are until they notice:

me (staring at her dress) "are you Baby?"

girl: yes! do you know you are the FIRST person who got that without me having to tell them?

apparently she'd planned this for a year and made the dress herself. apparently i was meant to be in that bar.

devotion

2008-10-09T22:43:00.009-04:00

i guess a dream i had this week brought up (unconscious) thoughts about that n. love, loyalty, or enthusiasm for a person, activity, or cause.

i immediately thought of this movie because that is how my mind thinks...if i were to look back on an experience it would be synched to music and this is a good one. i'd say it matches my intensity. i love HARD... and i came upon a spoof of it. the blonde is so cute; he's 22. go figure; all the fun ones are.

for some reason this made me also think of reliving scenes from movies. in lieu of the 90s i think this could be a very fun project..."ooh project!" i will not ever, ever however relive the last scenes from KIDS.

i self-love you...

2008-09-27T22:56:00.005-04:00

i always seem to write when it rains. again i'm trying to be careful of disclosing too much too soon. i write that stuff in my journal. yes, i have a journal and have since i was 12. anyway, i'm finding it hard to grasp the art of self-love. it's not really something that comes in steps and it's different for everyone. i'm really good at nuturing and boosting the confidence of others but with myself i seem to have no clue where to begin...

i hate to admit it but i finally got around to getting some new booties and i actually felt better because of it. not that rush when you buy something you don't need but a feeling of finally doing something you've been putting off. my feet were cold, soaked - i wore my summer sneakers down in a month and today i was walking around the upper east side and they were there - in my size, in the color i wanted. i got these and didn't feel a hint of buyers remorse:

hopefully i won't wear these down for at least a year. they go with almost everything i wear and i'll try to at least wear them with something totally unmatched just to make myself feel less in control.

rain it's okay; it's saturday

2008-09-06T15:32:00.006-04:00

it's raining...it's saturday and i'm eager. eager to sweep the floor, forget to eat and wondering if i really need to go out in the rain to hunt for brown jeans...

ummm...

2008-09-06T02:11:00.005-04:00

i'm so sleepy. i am finally making a post but i find it hard to keep my eyes open. it's friday night; i'm home and find it nice to just be in my room listening to the rain. so...without putting to much of a strain on my mind and without disclosing too much too soon from my head, i'll just spurt out a few things i've thought of more than once this week...or just really hard for like 3 hours....

wearing Rick Owens

numerology and years of "introspection"

detox, detox, DETOX!

gossip girl is a guilty pleasure

i can't think of anything else fast enough...so bonsoir for now mon cheries...

xoxox

Selina Loves Hard

COFFEE, I'D LIKE TO SEE OTHER PEOPLE

wake up!

dreaming about maltese dogs led to this post...

today's version of the velvet elvis.

inspiration from...2

inspiration from...

alaskan summer! alaskan summer?

do barbies dream of plastic sheep...?

fairisle kind of day. winter grumble, grumble.

Unexplained Mysteries: Fibonacci Numbers

Death & Taxes

RIP McQueen

i bought this book

inspiration.

8th house.

macaron love

I used to live in a psychic city...

what does chanukah smell like?

joy is useless unless SHARED

and my creativity is feeding me.

ohhhmmmm

From Russia with Love.

let us play with your look some more

stuff i find and run into...or something.

too busy. no can make blog

(the center of the universe)

and ho! yonder, thee sentimentality...

let us play with your look.

i'm going to the uncanny valley

a smattering of my own photos

­McG How do I love thee…

so over damien hirst

random wants

hi, snark how are you?

MA|Art Market Principles show FIT.

Queens: woohoo! worthy

a message from the universe.

ambassadors of cute

Fafi!

grandma cookies in the sun.

what i saw in one day

squeeze

true love is fleeting

pictures that are not mine.

juliana hatfield playing in the background will help us solve this

you're walking through my heart once more...

balance

material world

by the power of greyshkul

i've got it all.

In your face exhibit

like warm kisses on my eyeballs

not remembering you were yesterday or forgetting you are tomorrow

absinthe you're pretty...

chocolate, fake movie stills and neon lighting the way...

waterworld

these things i have loved and eaten.

i believe i can see.

petit mort.

it's genius

go google yourself

halloween

devotion

i self-love you...

rain it's okay; it's saturday

ummm...

McG How do I love thee…